i have been with my fiance for almost 10 years..
Sometimes, i'm getting scared if d atmosphere suddenly changed ..
BUT
both of us love to talk and discuss if something doesn't feel right..
i don't want the spark to go away n fizzle out like it has in past relationship..
we don't let d small things in life get us down..
i always thinking of doing this when i see HIM...

• do a random kiss or hug for no reason at all
• acting goofy and laughing at his stupid jokes
• do romantic things
  
• text him a love msges that shows how much i love him..
  

it's very important to let each other know that u do appreciate d things they do for u..

GoodBye 2009..
i can say with regret because i really miss 2009...
especially on dis date 16th August 2009
but we have to welcome the change, 2010...
no one knows what exactly 2010 has in store for them...aite??

2010 in the beginning:

1. where did u bring in the new year ?

• in my room (Nizhniy)
• sleeping...zzZZzzz
  

2. who were u with ?

• roomate n then she went out celebrating with others.

In this year i hope , my family hv a lot of time to spend with me. and i can finish my fifth year..and start preparing for my wedding day.. **wink wink wink**

Ppl keep asking me this "how do u know Azri is d rite person?"

i knew him since in secondary school. we're together for 10 years..
we went thru ups n downs
wE broke up and we didn't talk for 2 years and all of sudden we started contact n talking again..
to me...
I HAVE NO DOUBT IN MY MIND AND HEART MY FIANCE N I ARE MEANT TO BE

i always feel joy each time we see each other. A relationship should feel that there is mutual respect for each other and desire want to work thru any problems that come along.
really listening to another's point of view n trying to work with it n respecting it..

GOD will send u d right person when it's d right time..
if u can learn to accept dat n not drive urself crazy going on "MEANINGLESS DATES" or "BEING WITH SOMEONE'S BF" trust me it wont happen..n GOD will send u d worse person ever....

i'm so happy
having someone who love me as much as i do
having someone who treat me with the utmost respect,kindness n love
having someone who doesn't take me for granted but love n cherish me
having someone who understand me
having someone who allows me to be me
...THANX AZRI...

i'm so bored beyond belief..
i kind of even want time to speed up about 1440 minutes..
that's how bored i am..
plus i'm alone in my room...

u now what, i really wanna eat "nasi lemak Malaysia"..
since last summer hol i never had a chance to eat it.....

can imagine how fun my sister n my mum walking here n there..
went to Dior, LV, Aigner, Gucci, Coach, Tods, Chanel, D&G..etc..
only 2 of them (+ Daddy.. ) without me..
shopping with Daddy it's just ~~~speechless~~
"abah i want this...." " masuk la n tgk la ape yg u suke n BELI"
hehehe..
last time my dad loves to bring us to KL for shopping spreee..
we stayed for 3 days 2 night dekat hotel kat Bukit Bintang..
but today dah upgrade to Singapore...
~~Ding Dong~~

awesome..i just spend 10 minutes of my time amusing myself..
hurrreyyy.. i dunno what to do now, besides type all this up...

just finished my epid exam...
finally..
but now i hav no idea what to do...

my sister called me yesterday and she was asking me about My Dior...
urghhhh...so jealous !!!
they went to Singapore just for shopping spreeeee!!!!
i love SHOPPING!!!
love getting new stuffs especially handbags,shoes and makeup...
but handbags i prefer twice a year since d price quite ~~*ehem ehem*~~...
even though i already hv a bunch of make up , i would still searching for more..
"___"
anyhow , these are d brands i like...

GUESS
DIOR
COACH (soon)
GUCCI (soon)
CHANEL (soon)

i hope i can stop this habit but it's very hard...but at least rite now im trying..
then, my fiance always telling me this " sayang,nnt dah kawin n kite pegi honeymoon boleh u shopping banyak2 kan"
erkkkkk .... supportive gile ....
BIG NO NO....
MaMa always said "Ct, u dah nak kawin okey..now yeah every week u boleh kluar masuk Guess and at least buy anything u want ... later dah kawin kene BERJIMAT CERMAT...no more PA n MA"~~ding dong~~
and my sister Azira so excited about me, getting married soon since she can replace me n get whatever she want from my daddy...
"kak ct ermmm i think abah will buy me DIOR 1x/6 months since u dah xde"
~~owhh really~~ i dont care..... (i do care actly but x wanna think about it)..

the whole day i've been searching for My Dior..
and i love d Grey Lady Dior evening Bag and saddle bag
but my sister called dis evening and told me dat there's no saddle bag in dat boutique...
only my Grey Lady n she think it's too matured...
(cant find d pic since it's a brand new )

Nothing really specific on my mind today..kind of a whirly-bird effect going on up there right now.. trying to stay (+) about my winter holiday.
i had a hard day yesterday..
but stay calm since it's just an exam stress + PostMS..
my mind is muddled today ..im sitting here trying to concentrate and memorize the materials..but my mind is blank..i can't catch anything ..but it's already Sunday..tomorrow is my exam day..
~~~~~~~~WAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~~~

i'm relaxing 'n' doing nothing...
i keep eating cuz i'm bored...

i've been feeling pretty empty lately, i'm not sure why..
probably because of lack of socializing..
i don't think so..
last nite i was "lepaking" with erna n areyum..
they are 2 years younger but it's always been a blast with them...

talked on d phone with my fiance, but he seems not really in d mood means tired.. pity him...been bz lately with his tight schedule....
then, just left d iphone in my room..x expecting text from anybody since my fiance went to bed D..
i went out to see erna..
after we finished watching movie "kereta Hantu Manggarai"..stupid but scary 'n' irrelevant..
i returned to my room "n" again i dunno what to do..

i hate weekend..
coz basically, i have nothing to do on weekend...
except for resting n chilling..
'n' this is really not my thing..because that will be resting + too much thinking..
i prefer doing something like ... i dunno...
i just want my real life..my room, cars, 'n' shopping mall..
owhh yesss my "lisa" ..
but since she's bz with her job n bf 'n' again i need to find someone else to hang out with..
i really miss d moment we always hang out together.."our night's life"..
we went to Bangsar, Hartamas..bla bla bla..just to enjoy d foods..talking n laughing..
huh....
i just need someone like her..can listen to me 'n' never make fun of it..
can cheer me up..with her stupid jokes n ideas..
yeahhh u really cool babe...